The things I didn’t think were “so bad” and the things I had been pushing down and blatantly trying my best to “ignore,” I couldn’t ignore any longer.

Despite an effort to “love myself,” self-loathing and hatred were running the show. Misdirected anger and alcohol use for temporary relief left me feeling ashamed and disconnected.

I found myself seriously contemplating leaving this life. I felt as though I was dangling over the cliff’s edge. And yet, I desperately wanted to choose life.

So I chose to make a necessary commitment to care for myself in the way I had been caring for others because I wanted to continue to play this game of life.

Compassionate Inquiry was my “gateway drug” - the key that unlocked the door I had been terrified to open. The unraveling, unlearning, relearning and remembering revealed a whole new world of potential, possibilities, and purpose.

I began to learn that I could foster compassion for myself, which opened my heart to new and greater depths of love for myself and others. For the first time in my life, I could finally say that I loved myself and mean it with every cell of my being. Along with this self-love, my Soul’s ability to speak light language re-emerged.

As I dove deeper into love for my body and eros (life force energy) in a somatic sexology training, I reawakened my creativity, my voice, my boundaries, and exponentially expanded my pleasure potential in all areas of my life.

• Brushing off the cobwebs (I can see clearer now).

• Befriending my shadows (realizing they weren’t so scary and actually were protecting me all along).

• Becoming curious about my beliefs (were they true, were they even mine, did I want them to continue to be true?).

• And uncovering treasures that were deeply buried inside of me all along (I am worthy, my voice matters, I am love/loved/loveable, I am good enough, and so many more).